It's OK though because we are moving right along. I began my new regimen. A higher dosage of Chlomid than I have ever had. (Yes, all of my super fun side effects have returned plus one new one. This time I am having vision issues. When I wake up everything has a weird "aura" to it. I don't know how else to describe it. When I move my hands you see it's path of movement trailing behind it. Super duper trippy!) Next my super fun injections. This month I have had 4 total injections given to me by the hubs. They are intended to stimulate follicle growth and to induce ovulation. My mid cycle sono revealed that my lining is the thickest it has ever been 10 mm! Whoop Whoop! I also had 2 follicles that are our most likely contenders this month. This week I had my second IUI. Fingers and toes crossed something sticks! I am cautiously and nervously hopeful!
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Here We Go Again...
One IUI down and no luck. I wasn't completely surprised. We knew it was a long shot. I wasnt' on any medications to increase our odds, but you can't help feeling that tiny little ping of disappointment.
It's OK though because we are moving right along. I began my new regimen. A higher dosage of Chlomid than I have ever had. (Yes, all of my super fun side effects have returned plus one new one. This time I am having vision issues. When I wake up everything has a weird "aura" to it. I don't know how else to describe it. When I move my hands you see it's path of movement trailing behind it. Super duper trippy!) Next my super fun injections. This month I have had 4 total injections given to me by the hubs. They are intended to stimulate follicle growth and to induce ovulation. My mid cycle sono revealed that my lining is the thickest it has ever been 10 mm! Whoop Whoop! I also had 2 follicles that are our most likely contenders this month. This week I had my second IUI. Fingers and toes crossed something sticks! I am cautiously and nervously hopeful!
It's OK though because we are moving right along. I began my new regimen. A higher dosage of Chlomid than I have ever had. (Yes, all of my super fun side effects have returned plus one new one. This time I am having vision issues. When I wake up everything has a weird "aura" to it. I don't know how else to describe it. When I move my hands you see it's path of movement trailing behind it. Super duper trippy!) Next my super fun injections. This month I have had 4 total injections given to me by the hubs. They are intended to stimulate follicle growth and to induce ovulation. My mid cycle sono revealed that my lining is the thickest it has ever been 10 mm! Whoop Whoop! I also had 2 follicles that are our most likely contenders this month. This week I had my second IUI. Fingers and toes crossed something sticks! I am cautiously and nervously hopeful!
Monday, July 7, 2014
Shots Shots Shots Shots Shots- Shots Shots Shots Shots Shots- Shots Shots Shots Shots Shots Shots...
Nope... these are not the kind that involve Lil'John or LMFAO...unfortunately. They also aren't for ...EVERYBODY. (Can't help singing the dumb song) These shots are just for me.. again unfortunately.
This was my first month doing a home injection. Doctor wants to move forward with the trigger shot to induce ovulation followed up with our first (and hopefully only) IUI.
I worked for a plastic surgeon for over a year and prepared needles, syringes, watched hundreds injections administered and minor surgery, still there was no way I could poke myself. It's fine if I am watching someone else, but it waaayyy freaked me out to do it to myself. I enlisted the help of my dear husband. I thought it would be more difficult for him than it was or make him nervous. ( Hey, can't a girl milk some of this stuff for a tiny bit of pity from her hubs every once in awhile.) So not the case. Give your wife a shot in her stomach? No big deal for Mr. Wiechman.
It was the next part of the process he found a little more difficult and strange, which I totally get. The dreaded (Insert suspenseful music here... dun dun dun) IUI (Intrauterine insemination) No one thinks you are going to have a baby in a doctors office. I mean you want to deliver the baby in some sort of medical facility (safety first + meds) , but not actually conceive there... unless they have some weird doctors office fetish? Anyways. This is our life and our reality for now. There is some sort of issue making this process non typical for us and we are choosing to do what is necessary to become parents. It's not easy, it's not super common (though 1 in 7 couples struggles with infertility), it's not fun or glamorous and it's not a path anyone would choose for themselves, but it's our path and a part of our story. All we can do is carry on and look for the little blessings that have come from it. (of which there have been many) Saying I want things in MY TIME and MY WAY, sounds selfish and bratty and is really only acceptable behavior from those under the age of 7. Of course we all would love for life to be that way. I mean, my 3 year old niece (bless her little heart) wants chocolate milk in her princess cup NOW and it magically appears. That is definitely the life :)
Well let me tell you. That first positive sign on a pregnancy test will be my magical cup of chocolate milk. As slow and daunting as this process can seem it will probably never be considered our way, but it will be our time someday. Success rates aren't greatly incresed with IUI without the fertility meds, which I did not have prior to this cycle, but my doctor didn't want to wast an opportunity. Now we just get to wait and see. Until then we give thanks for the journey and the lessons it brings!
Thankfulness for the week:
I give thanks to GOD for the physicians and technology that allow us to attempt overcome such obstacles.
I am thankful for the strength he has provided us toovercome face this insanely huge emotional struggle that is trying to conceive. Every day is different and we are doing our best to live in the moment!
I also give thanks for the extremely awkward photos I have been able to collect along the way. These will surely embarrass the heck out of our future kidddos, but hey! How many people can say, look in that picture I might be getting pregnant :)
This was my first month doing a home injection. Doctor wants to move forward with the trigger shot to induce ovulation followed up with our first (and hopefully only) IUI.
I worked for a plastic surgeon for over a year and prepared needles, syringes, watched hundreds injections administered and minor surgery, still there was no way I could poke myself. It's fine if I am watching someone else, but it waaayyy freaked me out to do it to myself. I enlisted the help of my dear husband. I thought it would be more difficult for him than it was or make him nervous. ( Hey, can't a girl milk some of this stuff for a tiny bit of pity from her hubs every once in awhile.) So not the case. Give your wife a shot in her stomach? No big deal for Mr. Wiechman.
It was the next part of the process he found a little more difficult and strange, which I totally get. The dreaded (Insert suspenseful music here... dun dun dun) IUI (Intrauterine insemination) No one thinks you are going to have a baby in a doctors office. I mean you want to deliver the baby in some sort of medical facility (safety first + meds) , but not actually conceive there... unless they have some weird doctors office fetish? Anyways. This is our life and our reality for now. There is some sort of issue making this process non typical for us and we are choosing to do what is necessary to become parents. It's not easy, it's not super common (though 1 in 7 couples struggles with infertility), it's not fun or glamorous and it's not a path anyone would choose for themselves, but it's our path and a part of our story. All we can do is carry on and look for the little blessings that have come from it. (of which there have been many) Saying I want things in MY TIME and MY WAY, sounds selfish and bratty and is really only acceptable behavior from those under the age of 7. Of course we all would love for life to be that way. I mean, my 3 year old niece (bless her little heart) wants chocolate milk in her princess cup NOW and it magically appears. That is definitely the life :)
Well let me tell you. That first positive sign on a pregnancy test will be my magical cup of chocolate milk. As slow and daunting as this process can seem it will probably never be considered our way, but it will be our time someday. Success rates aren't greatly incresed with IUI without the fertility meds, which I did not have prior to this cycle, but my doctor didn't want to wast an opportunity. Now we just get to wait and see. Until then we give thanks for the journey and the lessons it brings!
Thankfulness for the week:
I give thanks to GOD for the physicians and technology that allow us to attempt overcome such obstacles.
I am thankful for the strength he has provided us to
I also give thanks for the extremely awkward photos I have been able to collect along the way. These will surely embarrass the heck out of our future kidddos, but hey! How many people can say, look in that picture I might be getting pregnant :)
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Hostile Environments
Back to the doctor I go. That weird mid-cycle bleeding started yet again. I was a disaster. Crying at work is not my favorite thing. (Thank goodness I have such a wonderful boss) I looked and felt like a hot mess all day. Yes folks, this was one of my pity party days. You hold it together as long as you can; fearing the worst, hoping for the best, planning on disappointment, but clinging to that itty bitty teensy schmeensy bit of possibility that things may go your way. Let me just tell you, all of those feelings all at the same time all day every day definitely take their toll on you your sanity. I am pretty proud I am not a hysterical ball of bitchiness ever very often.
Well back to square one yet again. I thought maybe this month my body would straighten up and get it's crap together. Not so much. The plan was to go into the center, do blood work (Which was awful. I got the new girl, which meant she couldn't find my blood in the tiny veins on the arm I told her not to use, because everyone has trouble. Some digging, a few minutes of trying unsuccessfully to distract me with banter and back to the correct arm, they finally had some blood.) The next step was yet another sono. (Lucky me) and then wait for a call.
The results were actually good! All of that crying was for nothing. I am still mid cycle with a big ol' follicle and thick lining. Next steps trigger shot. (Which I have to give myself. EEK!) Then an IUI on Saturday morning. Fingers crossed it's just my angry cervix that is holding us back. The nurse described it as a "potentially hostile environment". He he he... I mean you have to giggle at that. I'm just imagining my cervix is like the Mexico/US border. Guards on duty with AK's. Austin may be able to out arm wrestle anyone, but his swimmers are no match for my cervix :)
Wishing everyone a happy 4th of July! Here's to hoping we get more than a fireworks show this weekend!
Well back to square one yet again. I thought maybe this month my body would straighten up and get it's crap together. Not so much. The plan was to go into the center, do blood work (Which was awful. I got the new girl, which meant she couldn't find my blood in the tiny veins on the arm I told her not to use, because everyone has trouble. Some digging, a few minutes of trying unsuccessfully to distract me with banter and back to the correct arm, they finally had some blood.) The next step was yet another sono. (Lucky me) and then wait for a call.
The results were actually good! All of that crying was for nothing. I am still mid cycle with a big ol' follicle and thick lining. Next steps trigger shot. (Which I have to give myself. EEK!) Then an IUI on Saturday morning. Fingers crossed it's just my angry cervix that is holding us back. The nurse described it as a "potentially hostile environment". He he he... I mean you have to giggle at that. I'm just imagining my cervix is like the Mexico/US border. Guards on duty with AK's. Austin may be able to out arm wrestle anyone, but his swimmers are no match for my cervix :)
Wishing everyone a happy 4th of July! Here's to hoping we get more than a fireworks show this weekend!
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