We're Here for the Sex!

I can't believe I am far enough along to know what we are having!  Austin refused to be surprised and thought that a gender reveal party was silly. Well I felt like we have waited so long for this that I want to experience every single baby right of passage and party there is. Silly or not.

We decided on a compromise. We would find out together what the sex was and then have a small party for our immediate family. Calling them on the phone just sounded so boring. I wanted to see their faces and to celebrate this little one together.

The problem with this plan was that Austin is TERRIBLE at keeping secrets. To help out, our sono was scheduled on Thursday and then the party was planned for Saturday to leave as little time possible between the two for him to spill the beans.  This strategy mostly worked, though I later found out he slipped up a few times. :) I am not surprised haha! This was definitely the hardest secret to keep and those 2 days until the party felt like FOREVER...

I know.. this was kinda cruel

The party was a blast! My sweet sister-in-law Ayrin and mother-in-law, Kathy helped with all of the crafting, decorating and food. It was adorable and a fun filled day.  Austin and I decided to have a little extra fun and faked out our family. We had a giant gender reveal balloon, but filled it with black and white confetti. It was pretty funny to see everyone's reactions. Right before it popped there was tons of cheering and the second it burst it was dead silent.  We moved the party outside and had a pinata that all of our nieces and nephew got to take a whack at to reveal baby W's gender.

The kiddos loved it. It was really fun to get them all involved. Well everyone we are having a .... .......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

BOY!!!!! I can't even describe how excited we are. Not that we cared what we had. After all that we have been through you aren't picky.. you just want a baby. A healthy baby.  We were soooo pumped during our sono. Austin teared up a tiny bit, I balled like a baby and then we high fived! The tech was pretty funny. I told her it was just so weird to see that tiny human in me. It felt like I had mad the whole thing up at times and she said, " nope... you are really pregnant." Obviously and what a little wiggle worm he is. I had no clue what to expect. My animated pregnancy app shows peaceful babies floating around almost like an astronaut in space. Slow, steady... ugh no. This little guy was flipping and flailing his two perfect arms and two perfect little legs everywhere. It's so weird to think that there is that much activity going on inside of me and I can't feel a thing yet!

Our Upside down little rodeo clown. ( See his little hand up by his head?!?!)

Definitely a boy! It is VERY strange to think that I am growing a penis hahaha!

A New Year and a New Trimester!

We made it!

We survived 2015! Holy hell it was rough. 2015 was the year of emotional schizophrenia. I am not sure I have felt so much and so many different things so intensely in such a short amount of time. It's

The year began with our first IVF treatment for which I had so much hope and courage, only to be followed with such extreme disappointment.

Next up IVF number 2, again rallied the hope and courage only to fall even deeper into the pit of utter and complete despair and hopelessness to the point that crawling back out seemed impossible.

Bring on the summer of fun. Crazy vacations full of unbelievable moments with incredible people.

Then back to reality and self pity. Let me tell you, I can throw one hell of a pity party.

It was a year full of births and babies for lots of friends and family, which I loved, and was so excited about while simultaneously battling feelings of self pity and envy. ( Let me tell you how sucky that was and how awful that can make you feel as a person and a friend)

Rounding out the year with an awesome birthday celebration for the hubs.

Finish out the year with a VERY surprising pregnancy. ( Loads of emotions there... happy, scared, disbelief, joy, gratefulness, terror, uncertainty, holy hormones on top of that... it was quite the bundle)

I don't think I have cried so much in my life, both from sadness and joy. 2015 was definitely a tear filled year.

2016 is here now which also meant the beginning of our SECOND TRIMESTER!!! It is crazy how fast and slow things seem to go at the same time.  The time between appointments and getting to hear that precious heartbeat seems to take an eternity, then on the flip side we find out if baby W is a he or she in a WEEK AND A HALF! That just seems crazy!

Speaking of crazy fast... the teeniest of bumps has already started to appear... I am so looking forward to seeing this thing grow!