I Didn't Cry

Nope... I didn't.  I saw that single line... yet again and I didn't cry. Sure my eyes welled up and it was a close one, but not a single tear slipped out.  Mostly because Austin did a crazy dance to distract me, but I sucked it up.

Fast forward 5 hours I am trying to get back out west for lunch and I miss my turn to get onto Kellogg because I forgot that on this street it's on the opposite side, so I have to drive a mile out of the way just to make a U turn to go back that same mile to get back on track... I almost cry.  Clearly justifiably.  Those would have been tears of utter frustration at the poorly developed street locations.

I get to the restaurant and find out I need to kill some time before my mother and sister in laws arrive.  I decide to go get gas.  I try to turn left and car after car after car keep merging into the turn lane blocking me, 10 minutes later I decide to go right... again I almost cry.. today is just a big cruel joke.  The drivers of Wichita are out to get me ( anyone that has ever driven in Wichita knows how terrible the drivers are and have probably cried in traffic before as well ) Again, it would have been totally justifiable.

I pull up to SAMS... finally to get some gas.  The attendant starts walking over. I am thinking, hmm is this a full service station where they pump the gas for you?  I roll down my window and he says, " Ma'am,  I am sorry but its the damnedest thing all of our power is out so you can't get gas here."

I cry.  Big, sad, ugly, crocodile tears and just stare at that poor poor man.  He begins apologizing again, as he should. I clearly needed gas and am now extremely distraught at the thought of driving any further in search of it.

Ok, ok, my almost cries and full out cry had nothing to do with anything other than the fact that I held off feeling sad and sorry for myself.

Note to self and anyone else going through something emotional; Don't feel bad about going all Elsa in the moment.  Let that shit go!  Had I just cried it out in the morning, I wouldn't have had to freak out the gas attendant.

Luckily I was too upset to pay attention to what he looked like  so the next time I get gas there I won't remember who to be embarrassed in front of :)

Also on the up side of things, my latest appointment at the center went really well.  No cysts so onward we go.  Same medicine regimen as last time since things appeared to have gone really well.  Here we go again!