IT"S ALIVE!!!!

Lefty is alive! Not only is she alive, but she is kicking ass! :)   I had my first sono of this IVF cycle today.  I didn't realize how nervous I was until I was sitting in the waiting room.  My leg wouldn't stop shaking, I was sweating and couldn't decide if I was going to cry or have diarrhea. Yep, I was that nervous.  This sono was a VERY BIG DEAL.  Last cycle my left ovary did NOTHING. Not a flipping thing, not one teeny tiny follicle.  It just sat back and made righty do all of the heavy lifting (growing).  My fear going into this sonogram was that the same thing was happening.  If the same thing was happening, my bigger fear was that we would be closer to a diagnosis for me.  The even bigger fear then was that the diagnosis would be premature ovarian failure, which there is no reversing or coming back from. There would be no hope of us being that couple that maybe had some failed IVF cycles then adopted then magically had a baby of their own.  No that diagnosis is pretty much it.  Your ovaries and reproductive system are just going kaput and there is nothing you and all of the naturally acne causing supplements can do about it.

Magic Stick...we meet again!

Today I saw follies.  Beautiful follies growing on my previously lazy ovary. (sorry lefty, I know you have done a lot of work over the last few years, but you really let me down last cycle... I am SOOOO proud of you right now though!)  I asked if we were looking at the right ovary (weird, you would think that you could tell which way the magic want is pointing, but it all kind of feels the same up in there) My nurse said nope that's the left and there are... wait for it... wait... "quite a few follicles I am seeing".  I immediately begin crying my very happy tears and then we begin laughing together.  She asked, "Did you ever think your ovary would make you so happy you would cry?".  No, no I didn't.  Never before this process did I really give a crap what my ovaries were doing.  I could never have imagined how precious they are and how much they do.

Grow follies grow!

Righty was doing just fine this time too.

Current Totals:

Right ovary- 6 follicles
Left ovary - 8

(Last cycle this time there were 4 on the right and none on the left)

These still may not be "ideal" numbers. ( I am not even sure if there is such a thing this stuff is so individualized), but they are mine and so far things are looking better for us this time.

Now praying they continue to progress and grow and that they are working on giving us some very healthy eggs.

My estrogen was also up from 63 to 234 which I was told was a good rise! (with an exclamation point)  Today is a good day and we will celebrate it's blessing which GOD has bestowed upon us.  I don't know what tomorrow or the rest of this cycle holds for us, but today is good. Very. Very. Good. I can definitely work with that!

yes... I look happpy crazy and slightly confused... partly because I forget where the actual camera is on my phone sometimes and mostly because that was how I was feeling after the appointment.  I am excited and hopeful and still a little freaked out about the rest of this cycle!   More to come!